Insanity

I do not make myself a fool
but it is the environment that makes me act like one
it is a response of my stimuli perhaps
of course i regret and do not regret this response of mine
some, part of it maybe, i do not know
one of me say what a pathetic life i have
and the other say just to live my life up
but which life should i live?
there's no handbook of where to go
what to follow
no rules, no guides of what to do
such a complicated or should i say a complex one!
its in the common sense!
but how will i know if its a sense in the common sense say?
evaluate? conclude? be like Prometheus?
oh my..