Sixth Element

This picture gives me the feeling of 'The Fifth Element' movie.

I actually look good with blue hair. Wacha say?

My Dream Dream

It was on the night of July 18'13 when I had a long wished dream to dream of him. And surely my guardian Angel granted my desperate plea. 

It was outside of the SM Cinemas and it was so crowded.. Just like people coming out of theaters after the movie- that crowded. I have to walk sideways and squeeze my breath just to pass through though I don't remember what I was hurrying for. And lo and behold, there he was standing like he's everything for me. 

I continued to ease myself through and eventually I'm infront of him. He turned his head and we stared at each others eyes like we were alone in the world, voices around were muted out and it felt like the world was spinning. All I could see was him and all he could see was me. He seemed captivated (yes that's the word I'm not exaggerating). I broke the staring contest first with a smile that denotes that I acknowledged him as my highschool classmate. 

As I was about to step down on the escalator, he held tight of my wrist not breaking his stare at me. I tried to get my hand back and loosen his grip but it was too tight and very intentional. It felt like my heart was gonna burst from his touch.. So I just let him hold my hand and before I know it we were together checking things out in the store. 

Even in my dreams I was being resistant to his affection towards me because it was too much for me to handle. I was being stupid and tried very hard and successfully looking ignorant of the love vibes we are giving off towards each other. Well, I just didn't want to look easy-to-get and be devastated in the end if it didn't go well (like it would ever happen.)

So, I went somewhere when he was not looking and well in the end I haven't found myself towards him. The End.

I feel so stupid for being restrained and ended up losing him. Oh well the dream is finished and it was still a marvelously enchanted dream I've ever had. Having your crush look at you with loving and longing eyes and a death grip that manifests his strong affection towards you...it's more than your heart could handle. ❤

Face Off

Had a nightmare about my hair and it was awful. Very awful. Tried to take a shot of me but cant get my usual photo smile because of this hair! This hair!

As you can very well see my head shape doesnt suit my new hair look. Ahhh ramblings of regret. There is no end.

Heavy Regret

I cut my friggin hair short just because it was feeling a little too many in my scalp. My effin perfectly thick natural healthy anybody would die for long black smooth straight soft hair!

I dont know what has gotten into me to cut it when just before leaving the house for the parlor, I had a great instinct not to do it but wth I went anyway! I totally believe I'd die first in any situation of life and death because of my twisted will and  instinct. Hate it so much. Cried two effin times within 4H after the haircut. What can I do? Its done.

Ive grew this hair for more than a year and poof just like that because of my i dont know mind, its gone! I feel a heavy very heavy heart right now its getting hard to breathe and swallow whatever..

 

And dont even think about saying oh it looks okay because it does not! Why which one is better?! The long one right then it just naturally comes that the asdfghjkl short hair is ugggggggleh!

 

I am so angry so sad so depressed I can die already. Please if only I can undo it or grow my hair short in a split minute like tearing a paper then just taping it back.. Life.

The Other Side of the Planet

Having watched all the movies lining up your list, cleaned the whole house literally..there's nothing more to do (in my world there is none) So I went to go to my old chat page that I used back then like 6 years ago, chatango.com and chat with some foreign people and make some friends. So there's this guy who seems kind of awesome so we chatted in Skype just now. And it was video chat. You could just imagine me being all nervously shaky and my palms and soles were dripping with nervous sweat..

We chatted awkwardly at first the smoothly then I hung up rudely. Thanks so much to my sneaky father who went straight to me probably knowing what Im doing and kept nagging me. Oh well, it's kinda great that it ended too coz we dont really have anything to say much to each other. He's 17 and wth I just said that Im 19! Why did I do that?!

He looks pretty handsome and yes handsome. HAHA But of course Im a sucker so I didnt tell him. He's going to the army and well I wish him good luck.

Ahh I dont ever want to do this video chatting again. I get all stutterish and dumb who smiles up till the end of the conversation.

Lastly, we have 12H difference and well it was weird when I skyping with the sun up and shining brighly and he gots the moon. :D

10 Minutes

Would you just believe this?! I was doing my routine watching the vines of my favorite people when I don't know..the video just stopped loading and viola, the dreadful notification appeared- No Internet Connection. Know what that means? It's happily smarty pantsy pussy black out again! And what..the electricity company supposedly just gave me false hopes in less than 10 minutes!!! They just turned the electricity for 10 minutes! 

Wow, I'm so happy. I think it was just turned on because one of them might have the dire need to poopie drop for 10 minutes! Aww nevermind. So frustrated like a loser frisbee wanna be player. My head has switched from throbbing to pounding now. This stress is getting me oooold.

Black Out and Midnight Ramblings

It's exactly 1:28 AM in my time here, raining outside and can hear every single drop of rain on the roof and the mud splash. As obviously as I am, I'm still awake in the hour of signing out to dreamland.. How I want to sleep badly but thanks to my beloved wi-fi internet who kept me awake for like 24 hours these recent nightsss, I have developed insomnia.

Oooh! The electricity is baaack and kicking good! Finally, I thought I was gonna be awake looking internet-deprived-zombie aka bored-to-death look until the sun came up.

FYI I'm actually feeling goody two shoes here when the black out made its way yesterday at around 7 PM and since then I just ate dinner and went straight to bed until around 12:50+ AM. I'm good with tracking time eh pirate?

Well, what bothers me at this time of the rainy night is that I have a seminar taaaday and I don't have a single idea what time and where it's going to be held. Oh yes, I'm a sucker for this. And no, I am not lost..sometimes yes I can agree to that. It's just that anything related to school, my pinna just redirect the sounds from hearing it and my pupils just go blurry when something comes up. Hoorah for my ignorance!

Oh well, it's still raining. My hed is throbbing with sleep deprivation? Or I don't know.. I'm not sleepy so it's entirely something else like lying wide awake for an hour now..

How I wish I'm like my pops who when lies down, falls asleep instantly. Poof! Snore. Just like that in 5 blinks of an eye.

Vining All Day Long

I recently found out about this app in Apple and it's so awesome if there's a Vineland I could go pack up now with only my phone and charger with me (of course with some undies and a couple of shirts and napkins....ok nvm) I mean it's the new tumblr on the face of this planet. Sucks on those though who doesn't have any knowledge about this app.. Actually, it kind of makes me happy that not all people know about it. Just makes me one of the few who knows about them cool hawty funny dreamboy kinda guys out there.

It's so easy to manage with only 6 seconds alotted for each viners so even though internet sucks it like a turtle snail, you could still actually watch it whole and wont be a whiner when what you watch just stopped and you have to start all over again to get the whole story (like in youtube especially during slow internet.)

So, I just updated my Vine and wth! there's a revine button now! At first I dont like it coz there'd be like revine revine revine seeing double double it'd be hard to navigate with all the double double I've already seeeen. Ahu-hu-hu but afterwards, I'm actually enjoying it. Thanks alot for my weak judgemental judgement.

Now check this out, for some reason this cracks me up..

https://vine.co/v/hWKq6KWMWql/embed

White Veil

And no I am not vain. Rainy day. Photos inspired by Aoi Yuu.