5 years and counting

So apparently, I haven't published some of my blogs for the past 5 years or so. While I was previewing them wondering why I haven't clicked the published button in the past, I've come to see that all of them were unfinished rants. Anyhoo anyhoo anyhoo, to make up for the lost time and updates on this blog, I now live in the maple leaf country. Happy and still single. A lot had happened. Still day dreaming with my heart stuck in the past of a younger self.

It has only been 2 days since I've arrived from an ultimate trip! I went to Japan for 2 weeks, then Singapore for 3 days and Australia for 5 days. Mind you, it was one hell of a YOLO experience. I went with my best friend, T, whom I'm upset over right now due to her lack of photography skills to capture me solo in the scenic views of my love, Japan. But, what's done is done. I've only have my short memory and un-instagrammable photographs to remember by.

LAST 2 WEEKS: Day 3

05-27-14 Tuesday

Here I am sleepily lying on my cuddly bed. Today was supposed to be a round two rampage shopping event for me with my siblings. Due to some misunderstanding and achy muscle leg pains, good bye round two for today. Instead of being a lazy piece of flesh, we got our baggages sorted out, itemized, weighed, and finalized for good. My mom while being miles away from us was having Facetime and seems like she was there with us packing our things too. On the up/downside of having my mom watching us is getting some of our clothes packed you're-going-with-me to you're-staying-here-in-the-sunny-country-to-rot. I don't really know what to feel with that decision but decided to go for the positive side. Then rampage shopping it is when we arrive at the maple leaf! The only question left hanging is how much we can afford. Thrifty kid dilemma here.

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Avocado shake time! Ooh it looks like it's going to rain. Can already here the loud cricket sounds and it's only 3pm! Ah this warms my heart. I will miss these calm moments here in the sunny country.

LAST 2 WEEKS: Day 2

05-26-14 Monday

Got all the last remaining 2 weeks here in the sunny country scheduled and set. Why, where ya goin, what's up with that? -I figured you'd be wondering, if not, then let me just tell you a big change in my life right now. Me and mah dear homies are going to stay in the maple leaf country for good! Yep we aren't going back here in a very long time unless I got me some overflowing money boos. *Pardon me for my words and all, I'm listening to... Summertime by Will Smith, good ol 90's rap

Okaaay.. As I have said, we are goiiiing♪♪♪. Well we are going to start a new life there...from scratch. Aww but luckily it seems my fambam is a little too much on the brighter side. Yey! True that nothing is easy, we gotta crawl our way through but with determination, patience, and support from each other, I believe it's going to be a good life especially when we're going to be reunited with our supermom for almost 6 years! Gotta love that part! -BIG CHANGE IN LIFE STORY END-

Moving on about today's Day 2 happenings which is I think is kinda random worthy to post, we went to mall to buy all the stuffs I needed and wanted. So I emptied all the php coins from my water mill bank and counted them like for an endless time. When I finished being all finance business CEO, I got all giddily happy to have summed it in an unexpected amount! Seems like my college student years saved up some good money! That's just the good part. Next up in my counting session are all the foreign money I've been given in different occasions by different loveable people. These money go waaay back since highschool. So I decided to get them converted to php. What good does it do when I can't use it in the maple leaf, granted it could be a savings, but when you got no money on hand anymore, it;s much useful in dire situations like this. Again, after receiving the php converted money, it was like KAPOW! I think you already get the idea of what it means. :>

Now this is where the highlight of Day 2 comes, I got on an impulsive rampage shopping! I WAS NOT being like a spoiled bratita, I even gave it lot of thought before buying this and that. Looking back at my thoughts earlier, it seems like I knew for sure that they were a good deal and worth buying. However, the typical me always had second thoughts AFTER I already bought it and when I'm already at home. Shining and glittering things before my eyes in the mall just suddenly goes gray and dull when I'm already at home. It seems like my house is a reality puncher. Well, just great. :|

Grown

I was studying my face in the mirror to see just how much it has changed. And as much as it pains me, I have to admit it changed A LOT. Some people wouldn't have noticed it themselves with their own face because they'd have been fully accustomed to it or they just didn't look closer. In my case, I could see it crystal clear. It's a minute change but still visible. I've lost that school girl touch of mine. All I see now is a grown up woman. I think my face became more distinct and of course adult like.. To be honest, I'm kinda scared and totally not happy. Oh well, we are what we call mortals. 

Although my face has now aged, my heart and mind is still stuck in my school days, still behaves like a brat, watches cartoons and plays Barbies (with my midget cousins ofcourse!). Ah what a wonderful life.. At the very least I'm so thankful to have been given a chance to be alive tadaay! All hail the Lord! Amen! 

So this, my friend, is my recent matured look. Yah I have a very fine eyebrows, too fine that it's not very visible. HAHA

Linguistics

After all the countless movies I've watched and being fascinated with the accent and sounds of words I'm totally clueless about, I've actually decided to take a note of what I really want to do in my life.. Number 1, learn a complex foreign languange specifically German and Russian. Though I might want to add Dutch, Romanian (Ooh Bram Stoker's origin of vampires!) and Chinese (of which I have already half heartedly studied for nine years). The reason for these sudden decision is because my inspiration-level has reached its peak! Especially when the "influencers", pa and bro, constantly watch army/government/undercover-related movie flicks (of which is the source of my new found life mission). 

Think about this, in the world full of politics, money and communication, being able to speak different languages is a big advantage! You could even get hired into the intelligence like CIA, FSD, SVR or M1-6. Naaaw I'm kidding, you don't wanna get involved with those higher ups, the work could get you killed! You feel me? 

Anyway, it's just great to be able to speak and understand other languages. It somehow gives you a superior feeling and you could totally use it especially when you're in their country.

So because of my unbreakable determination, I'm already learning German now! I'm so happy and all but what frustrates me is that I can't effin' pronounce the "Ich" "Nicht" properly!!! Well that aside, I'm doing pretty awesome! Can't wait till I'm effin speaking German like I was raised in Germany! Yahoo!!! 

To prove my claim (I don't really need to prove anything. I just like saying that..for introduction purposes haha!), here's a screenshot. 

I can even understand German now! Even when it is being spoken! Before all these learning thingy, all I hear is a series of "shh schhh schlak aysh bla bla wth bla"! How awesome am I now?! I can even spell it right! Though the tomato part is kinda funny and irrelevant..who cares!!! Ja! German! 

Visual Reflex

While watching American Hustle, pencil in my hand and a piece of paper in front of me, a part of my mind just went synapsing my hands to drawing this! First it was my name, then after watching how pretty Amy Adams' eyes were, I unconsciously started drawing the eyes, and then so on.. I personally think that what I drew looks like Audrey Hepburn. It must be the eyes and the make-up effects.. Oh well, not bad for a non-artist me.

 

Redesigning

As the title depicts, I want to redesign my blog too! I want my blog to be like ganda-ganda.com 's where it gives off that fresh reader friendly aura! Tomorrow, rather, later (its 1:37am) Ima try my best doing graphics or whatever. Watch out for the transformation!

Side note: How accurate is this alien? Well, alien, I might add, just wait what I will do later and you'll be more than fascinated!

Serenity

Calming. Relaxing. Whatever you call it. These are the music I listen to that takes me to places I've never been, where castles rises up to the sky, vines crawling up the stone walls, people dressed up in renaissance gowns, fields of flowers and grass as far as the eyes can see, and a cool breeze that just makes you close your eyes and think of happy thoughts.

http://8tracks.com/ladylindy/reinassance-baroque-music

http://8tracks.com/ladylindy/sacrum-profanum

http://8tracks.com/trinirose/a-hogwarts-christmas

Polaspired

Polaroid-inspired, 'polaspired', get it?

It has been awhile since I blogged and when I blog, I go all out! If you (but I know you wont, who in the right mind would go check just to make sure?) take a look back into my previous posts, they were mostly done in one day in another month in another year. You get what I mean? HAHA Oh random ramblings it is.. When it hits you, you just gotta do what you gotta do you know. Just letting it flow out even if they don't relate to the topic, like what I'm doing now. Whoops.

Okay so I labs editing. I love it. I feel passionate with it. I can devote myself to it. Well, in another lifetime I will pursue whatever course that is related to it. IF I still have the spare time and loads of cash, why not try it in this life, right? We'll see, we'll see.

Here ya go, I love how the color jives with each other.

Back to Racking Brains

On 12/ 7-8 /2013 I took the Philippine Nurse Licensure Exam and on 01/15/2014 PRC released the board passers of 10K out of 35K board takers. With God's grace I passed on my first try. Unfortunately its been more than 3 months already and I'm still in the idle phase. One could say in a harsher vocab as in an unemployed state of life, unproductive phase, or wasting life phase. Not that I don't disagree but well I have my own personal acceptable reasons.

I am actually planning to work out in the wild with the beavers and maple leafs! The exam is but a stepping stone to be my legal credentials (not that it would do much help there). So with all the idle waiting here in the big hot oven place, I decided to start feeding my brain once again with knowledge my memory have flushed out without notice from me. Oh I just hope the knowledge would hold on well until the exams knowing my short memory is a pain in the ash. 

While feeding my brain about mommies and babes, I can't help but notice my bookmark about faith and   thought it appropriate for me in the moment. After one long 30mins, my artsy side kicked in and I had a tough time holding it in with no success, I went to do what I do best, editing. So this was the result, a crappy not-so-special image as I would have liked it.

The quote says "Faith gives us the courage to face the present with confidence, and the future with expectancy." 

One Authentic Blog

What I'm about to present you now is nowhere near the cliche 'blogger' word where it implies a ridiculously sexy glam girlash who wears trendy stuffs from head to toe with a head down, hands on the hair and crossed feet pose. Not to mention some flowery headband nymphs used to wear only in FICTIONAL BOOKS! No, nuh-uh, not happening. So if you think you could scoop up some fashion idols, better be warned ahead! This is some real authentic blog the world needs!

First off, let me tell you how I came about this beautiful blog. Once in a starry night, after watching a load of Harry Potter movies the whole day, I was so hyped to go to the Hogwarts Studio on London. While browsing pictures of Hogwarts Studio on google, I stumbled upon this magnificent blog (of which I will mention later, so please..patience is a virtue). I tell you, this blog got some worthy pictures and have some bonus sneak peaks of Hogwarts Studio other blogs might have brushed off! So it got me all interested and decided what else they've got in store! Lo and behold, after browsing and reading and browsing, I fell into their love trap!

The blog is being managed by a youthful hearty Filipina and the blog is all about her and her husband's travel around the world! They go to places my heart aches for and captures moments wonderfully! One of the many things I learned from this blog, it really is handy to have a camera skilled companion with you during your highlights in life. They don't have a child and they seem to be in their teen years, haha! not exactly, but when you read the blog, it somehow radiates this happy-go-lucky carefree feeling! Truly they are a match made in heaven! Oh how I wish I could find someone whom I could live life the way they're living it..

Okay I better stop dilly dallying, without further ado, I introduce you to my all-time favourite blog http://www.ganda-ganda.com. Did I mention they also do their own graphics etc? This blog is totally awshuuum! And and the husband, Markus, is an animator! How cool is that? Considering I wanted to be a graphic artist myself too though I don't know if life will let me have it. Well, have fun, enjoy and I hope you get bitten by the travel bug after reading this as it has bitten me a little too much.

PS If you ever liked the blog, tell them about me who referred you! Oh how I'd love to meet them someday!

Reality Punch

In my previous post, I spoke about my dearly beloved crush. Now I have a horrible understanding of how today's situation came about, thanks to my ever direct friend who summed up my foolishness.

For all you lads who are about to read this, this is not a make up wild imagination of mine. This, my friend, is reality that happened way back in my youthful lifetime.

Rewinding my youthful years, I could very well picture out every single detail that happened that day. Due to some unknown circumstances, he and I were alone in the classroom when he cornered me to the wall asking where I'll transfer next year. I was so cold to him I hated him so much because he wouldn't let me go. He was rambling promises that he'll follow me and who knows what more he was talking about. I was furious then that I was on the verge of crying. After what seemed a long time, he let go of me as I scrambled like a rat set free from the cage.

After that incident, he may have gotten the reality dose that never am I gonna like him and that it became obvious I hated him. He eventually made a distance from me the way I wanted it to be (before when I was a brat).

After a year..and many years to come, he would occasionally greet me and with annoyance, I'd ignore him. Smart move for someone who likes him lots right now, right?

Bottomline: I have created a solid line between us that says I am not approachable for you. Yes. Sad regrets of life. And that my friend has led to point out that I am now a blacklist on his list of eligible relationships. All together! 'Awwww'

*sniff

Happy Birthday, Avox!

Yappiest Birthday to my beloved 

sexy booby shaker we-are-bestfriends lovingly freakish bookworm 

who has gone lipoholic all stored at the back-hip-storage girlfriend!

 Now you can't say you got no booty balls to twerk 'em little butts!

Consequence Made Funny

At school, it has been a customary tradition for us to be exactly 15 minutes earlier than the expected time. And when one minute has passed and the roll calling of name starts, you're bound to the feeling of doomsday tardy human being on Earth. Even after graduating, you're still no exception to the law of the school.

So our review start at 8am and you've got to be there at 7:45am. To make the story short, I was late several times and I have to pay for the consequences. Pick a random question and present it to everybody the next day with the right answer along with it's rationale.

My classmate, Mrs. Younghusband aka Cody John's girlfriend as she assumes aka Robby Ayala's one-sided lover, started it all by placing embarrassing pictures of our fellow ASC in the PowerPoint to be seen by everyone! I think, our batch was the only one who had the most entertaining consequences ever and we always look forward for it. Well, viola! My turn has come and I made my techy-bimbo skill take over me.

First Rationalization:

Second Rationalization:

And here are the GIFs.

The Sweet Drip..

The Ramp Model.. 

(Sweet caller's lovey dove or so that's what we tease them)

The Smart Ass Guy..

And 

The Fat to Thin to Fat Chubs.

Ethical Consideration:

This may be considered as a form of bullying but we love each other and the GIFs not that emabarrassing. It even looks cute, right? I love you guys!

Happy Birthday, Davey!

Happy happy happy birthday to this whoopsie smart-ass guy!

Sixth Element

This picture gives me the feeling of 'The Fifth Element' movie.

I actually look good with blue hair. Wacha say?

My Dream Dream

It was on the night of July 18'13 when I had a long wished dream to dream of him. And surely my guardian Angel granted my desperate plea. 

It was outside of the SM Cinemas and it was so crowded.. Just like people coming out of theaters after the movie- that crowded. I have to walk sideways and squeeze my breath just to pass through though I don't remember what I was hurrying for. And lo and behold, there he was standing like he's everything for me. 

I continued to ease myself through and eventually I'm infront of him. He turned his head and we stared at each others eyes like we were alone in the world, voices around were muted out and it felt like the world was spinning. All I could see was him and all he could see was me. He seemed captivated (yes that's the word I'm not exaggerating). I broke the staring contest first with a smile that denotes that I acknowledged him as my highschool classmate. 

As I was about to step down on the escalator, he held tight of my wrist not breaking his stare at me. I tried to get my hand back and loosen his grip but it was too tight and very intentional. It felt like my heart was gonna burst from his touch.. So I just let him hold my hand and before I know it we were together checking things out in the store. 

Even in my dreams I was being resistant to his affection towards me because it was too much for me to handle. I was being stupid and tried very hard and successfully looking ignorant of the love vibes we are giving off towards each other. Well, I just didn't want to look easy-to-get and be devastated in the end if it didn't go well (like it would ever happen.)

So, I went somewhere when he was not looking and well in the end I haven't found myself towards him. The End.

I feel so stupid for being restrained and ended up losing him. Oh well the dream is finished and it was still a marvelously enchanted dream I've ever had. Having your crush look at you with loving and longing eyes and a death grip that manifests his strong affection towards you...it's more than your heart could handle. ❤

Face Off

Had a nightmare about my hair and it was awful. Very awful. Tried to take a shot of me but cant get my usual photo smile because of this hair! This hair!

As you can very well see my head shape doesnt suit my new hair look. Ahhh ramblings of regret. There is no end.

Heavy Regret

I cut my friggin hair short just because it was feeling a little too many in my scalp. My effin perfectly thick natural healthy anybody would die for long black smooth straight soft hair!

I dont know what has gotten into me to cut it when just before leaving the house for the parlor, I had a great instinct not to do it but wth I went anyway! I totally believe I'd die first in any situation of life and death because of my twisted will and  instinct. Hate it so much. Cried two effin times within 4H after the haircut. What can I do? Its done.

Ive grew this hair for more than a year and poof just like that because of my i dont know mind, its gone! I feel a heavy very heavy heart right now its getting hard to breathe and swallow whatever..

 

And dont even think about saying oh it looks okay because it does not! Why which one is better?! The long one right then it just naturally comes that the asdfghjkl short hair is ugggggggleh!

 

I am so angry so sad so depressed I can die already. Please if only I can undo it or grow my hair short in a split minute like tearing a paper then just taping it back.. Life.

The Other Side of the Planet

Having watched all the movies lining up your list, cleaned the whole house literally..there's nothing more to do (in my world there is none) So I went to go to my old chat page that I used back then like 6 years ago, chatango.com and chat with some foreign people and make some friends. So there's this guy who seems kind of awesome so we chatted in Skype just now. And it was video chat. You could just imagine me being all nervously shaky and my palms and soles were dripping with nervous sweat..

We chatted awkwardly at first the smoothly then I hung up rudely. Thanks so much to my sneaky father who went straight to me probably knowing what Im doing and kept nagging me. Oh well, it's kinda great that it ended too coz we dont really have anything to say much to each other. He's 17 and wth I just said that Im 19! Why did I do that?!

He looks pretty handsome and yes handsome. HAHA But of course Im a sucker so I didnt tell him. He's going to the army and well I wish him good luck.

Ahh I dont ever want to do this video chatting again. I get all stutterish and dumb who smiles up till the end of the conversation.

Lastly, we have 12H difference and well it was weird when I skyping with the sun up and shining brighly and he gots the moon. :D

10 Minutes

Would you just believe this?! I was doing my routine watching the vines of my favorite people when I don't know..the video just stopped loading and viola, the dreadful notification appeared- No Internet Connection. Know what that means? It's happily smarty pantsy pussy black out again! And what..the electricity company supposedly just gave me false hopes in less than 10 minutes!!! They just turned the electricity for 10 minutes! 

Wow, I'm so happy. I think it was just turned on because one of them might have the dire need to poopie drop for 10 minutes! Aww nevermind. So frustrated like a loser frisbee wanna be player. My head has switched from throbbing to pounding now. This stress is getting me oooold.

Black Out and Midnight Ramblings

It's exactly 1:28 AM in my time here, raining outside and can hear every single drop of rain on the roof and the mud splash. As obviously as I am, I'm still awake in the hour of signing out to dreamland.. How I want to sleep badly but thanks to my beloved wi-fi internet who kept me awake for like 24 hours these recent nightsss, I have developed insomnia.

Oooh! The electricity is baaack and kicking good! Finally, I thought I was gonna be awake looking internet-deprived-zombie aka bored-to-death look until the sun came up.

FYI I'm actually feeling goody two shoes here when the black out made its way yesterday at around 7 PM and since then I just ate dinner and went straight to bed until around 12:50+ AM. I'm good with tracking time eh pirate?

Well, what bothers me at this time of the rainy night is that I have a seminar taaaday and I don't have a single idea what time and where it's going to be held. Oh yes, I'm a sucker for this. And no, I am not lost..sometimes yes I can agree to that. It's just that anything related to school, my pinna just redirect the sounds from hearing it and my pupils just go blurry when something comes up. Hoorah for my ignorance!

Oh well, it's still raining. My hed is throbbing with sleep deprivation? Or I don't know.. I'm not sleepy so it's entirely something else like lying wide awake for an hour now..

How I wish I'm like my pops who when lies down, falls asleep instantly. Poof! Snore. Just like that in 5 blinks of an eye.

Vining All Day Long

I recently found out about this app in Apple and it's so awesome if there's a Vineland I could go pack up now with only my phone and charger with me (of course with some undies and a couple of shirts and napkins....ok nvm) I mean it's the new tumblr on the face of this planet. Sucks on those though who doesn't have any knowledge about this app.. Actually, it kind of makes me happy that not all people know about it. Just makes me one of the few who knows about them cool hawty funny dreamboy kinda guys out there.

It's so easy to manage with only 6 seconds alotted for each viners so even though internet sucks it like a turtle snail, you could still actually watch it whole and wont be a whiner when what you watch just stopped and you have to start all over again to get the whole story (like in youtube especially during slow internet.)

So, I just updated my Vine and wth! there's a revine button now! At first I dont like it coz there'd be like revine revine revine seeing double double it'd be hard to navigate with all the double double I've already seeeen. Ahu-hu-hu but afterwards, I'm actually enjoying it. Thanks alot for my weak judgemental judgement.

Now check this out, for some reason this cracks me up..

https://vine.co/v/hWKq6KWMWql/embed

White Veil

And no I am not vain. Rainy day. Photos inspired by Aoi Yuu.

Ze Insecure

My grandfather's a 3/4 Chinese, but I think it's close to a full one. So that makes Daddy-O (bored to death to solve fractions) part Chinese and me part-part Chinese. Even so, I don't seem to have any resemblance from my ancestral lineage. It makes me all uneasy carrying this family name and being surrounded by little eyes.. Now, then.. What will my complaining do to me? Nothing. That's right, nothing. Now that I've just read my useless, utterly hopeless desperate mumblings, I've come to a resolve! I must embrace myself and be proud of it! Now I can just forget about the physical aspect and concentrate to the next lineage, Italiano baby! Hyaaaa~ Boastful mode on, forgive my rudeness. 

Ah, now that I look at it. My esteem dropped again...to *calculating. Compared to their achievements, I'm.. oh nevermind. I love them and I'm proud. I think that's what matters right?

Harris Twins

Bristish boys equals love around the world! Since my beloved Avox Veekisi is a die hard fan of Britsih boys, she shared this to me. And ooh once you've watched them, you can't just stoooop! Just wanted to shuuur this to you. Aren't I so generous? and kind? Well, most people would prefer to keep silent about their new found lovapalooza addiction. I'm not one of them..sometimes. Well then, pirates, have fun!

By the way, they're twins and it doubles the oooh glitters in the eyes! *sparkle *sparkle

PS These vids are certified to be ooohlaloved by guurls. Not sure with men though. But if you men of humanities happen to like them, well I wish you good luck and a happy happy happy gay lives! Just kidding!

For more videos check out Jack and Finn The Better Twins!

Otaku

Everyone knows I'm an anime addict addict addict. It's just a world where I could waste my time here on earth and actually have fun watching and day dreaming about it..I don't have any regrets or so, just that I wish I was an anime! Ah that's my hopeless dreams talking. HOWEVER (oooh I'm so fond of using these kind of words, makes me feel like a genius), I firmly believe that I'm a perfect candidate of being an anime. Just look at this picture of me. I could pass as a real anime!

Although I don't do cosplays and getting all those *sniff amazing costumes, it doesn't make me a less fan of anime. I'm a 100% otaku for crying out loud! Life is just too short to die early because of bankruptcy caused by buying costumes and props.. But! If anyone is willing to lend me one, sure why not, YOU'D be so honored that I'd be wearing it! Ooops, ego talking, sorry about that. Pssst, do I really look good in that wig?

Scrap booking: Royalties Theme

Long time no blog, blog! Oh, how I miss how my fingers go wild with the keyboard sputtering and typing nonsensical things..like now. TEEHEE. Okay, so we were given a project to make a scrap book about antidepressant drugs. Goodie luck, it's my forte..or so I assume. Damn, here comes the regret creeping in the back of my brain saying "You shouldn't have taken nursing! You of all people who is a feeler who think she's an artist should have pursued that feeler-talent!" Bla bla bla. Anyway, here's a sneak peak (it's the WHOLE deal!) of what we made.

jajaaaang!

 Used felt paper textured cartolina! Still haven't finished the cover page. Blank mind on this one. 

 Ah this one looks like a nine-tailed fox! 

 I really have no idea why I drew hands there, it looks creepy as hell. Creepily elegant!

 Oh.. This oneis nvm. I've ran out of cut-out designs and silver ink.

 And I'm special mentioning here my book buddy, Avox Veekisi for this amazing doodledoo!

 Ah this is the part where the silver pen died.

 And a special mention here to my very "ARTISTIC" friend who just pasted everything that she reaches, Mrs. Youngerwife.

 Hello to you too, Mrs. Youngerwife.

 The look from infinity and above!